[He just watches, silent, from above. A part of him wonders if he should be upset about what just happened, about how she's departing like this.
But if he's upset about anything, it's the way she so easily and effortlessly made him obey.
And he's not sure how he feels about... about obedience in general yet. Would it have been alright if it were HYDRA? He doesn't know. HYDRA hurt him. He knows that. HYDRA hurt him a lot. But HYDRA also gave him a purpose, gave him meaning, gave him life.
Natasha isn't offering any of those things. She's just taken advantage of him. And she brought him to Steve.
His gaze flicks over to Steve. He's still not sure how he feels about that yet, either. Or if he wants to feel about it. Or if he should feel about it.
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But if he's upset about anything, it's the way she so easily and effortlessly made him obey.
And he's not sure how he feels about... about obedience in general yet. Would it have been alright if it were HYDRA? He doesn't know. HYDRA hurt him. He knows that. HYDRA hurt him a lot. But HYDRA also gave him a purpose, gave him meaning, gave him life.
Natasha isn't offering any of those things. She's just taken advantage of him. And she brought him to Steve.
His gaze flicks over to Steve. He's still not sure how he feels about that yet, either. Or if he wants to feel about it. Or if he should feel about it.
His head fucking hurts.]